bad mood

Oh I'm in a bad mood.

My eating has gone completely to pot and I've put back on 2lbs. I'm back to eating everything I can find and scavaging through the cupboards to see what delights are lurking at the back. And yes, I've gone as far as scooping jam out of the jar just for a bit of a sugar rush.

On top of that, my hubby is driving me nuts. In fairness, he's a good guy and he does his share of chores but he always does the wrong ones. Our usual childcare isn't available today (but we knew this would happen a few weeks ago) so we have made the necessary plans. It involves me having to take my lunch break at a ridiculous time of day and drive here there and everywhere (therefore missing my lunch, maybe that will help with the 2lb gain!). I then have to drive all over the place once work is done. I also need to provide the stand-in childcare provider with food for our son.

So I asked hubby to make sure he got bread and put petrol in the car (as we had neither, and both are needed for my frantic day today). He didn't do either. So this morning I was up at dawn trying to sort all of this out while he slept in - and he couldn't understand why I was huffy with him.

Grrrrr

Oh the indignity!

I dealt with a massive obstetric trauma call. I don't know the specifics but somehow she had internal lacerations. Maybe this was from forceps, I don't know.

Anyway, she bled and bled and bled. She had about £13,000 of blood products which is really going some. A standard bag of blood costs about £150 (and yes, I know you give it for free, but someone has to pay the staff, for the equipment, for the HIV tests etc etc etc).

As if the poor woman hadn't suffered enough, I then had a request from critical care once she was stable stating clinical details of, 'Massive vagina'. Turns out they meant 'Massive vaginal lacerations'.

Despite the awful circumstances, I couldn't help but giggle.

Not dieting so much

I'm very pleased that I have now lost 26lbs. However, this has been slow and agonising.

These past few weeks I've felt a bit emotional and consequently I have eaten anything that isn't nailed down. I have 19lbs to go until my BMI is <30 so I really cannot stop here.

Part of the problem is that I have now had confirmation that I am unlikely to get pregnant again without IVF. Hubby and I have not used contraception for 2 years, so I'm in agreement with them on this.

I was hoping that my weightloss and the metformin would help, but alas no. My main goal of the weight loss was to help me get pregnant and now that that has been taken away from me my motivation has weakened. I'm obviously aware of the benefits to my health and to my appearance, but ultimately it was the hope of a pregnancy that spurred me on.

Hopefully this is just a blip and my next entry will be commenting that I have lost my next 19lbs!

Toddler Logic

Me: "LITTLE ONE! Will you STOP picking your nose. If I have to tell you that ONE MORE TIME then there will be instant time-out. It's dirty and nasty and don't do it again."

Little One: "I wasn't picking my nose, I was just looking at it with my finger".


Priceless.

Jedward, Danyl and Simon Cowell

The country has gone X-Factor mad. Now don't get me wrong, I'm a bit of a fan myself - it's my weekend guilty pleasure.

I heard that one of the tabloids stated that Danyl is 'more hated than Hitler'. Now come on! He's actually my favourite but I appreciate he's a bit of a marmite love-him-or-hate-him kind of character. But Hitler?? You're comparing a talent competition contestant to him? Really??

As for all the fuss about those hapless twins 'Jedward' - well what a load of nonsense. Yes, they're pretty useless at singing but you must admit they're amusing. I keep hearing people complain about how this is a singing contest - it's NOT, it's an entertainment show aimed at keeping Simon Cowell's pockets heavily lined. Any idea how much he makes from those phone-ins? It's more than I'd earn in a lifetime.

So it stands to reason that he would keep the dreadful twins in. The nation is up-in-arms about it, there's publicity left, right and centre. More publicity means more votes which means more cash in his pocket.

So is anybody really surprised?

back!

I've been a little out of the blogging loop for a while, but feeling in the mood again :-)

Life in the lab has been really busy (will update more soon). I'm still only 21lbs down from when I started the dreaded diet with orlistat - but at least it's off instead of on I suppose?! My gynae consultant has also started me on metformin for my PCOS and here's hoping for some success.

I'm feeling like I'm on tenderhooks all the time at home at the moment although I'm not entirely sure why.

I'm looking forward to some more blogging, will catch up with it all soon.

I've really been fighting to lose some weight and am now 16lbs lighter. Hooray!

Yesterday I bought clothes in a smaller size and today a colleague commented that I was looking slimmer. Woohoo! That beats what the scales say :-)